Sadness in Surrender
March 6th 2008 10:00
No matter how hard I try, it's just not happening for me.
People keep throwing the cliche "Try and try until you succeed!" and frankly, I just want to throw all the words in the trash.
I do want to throw my arms in the air. And then I want to scream, and run, run, run through a meadow barefoot. Where I would go, I do not know. But it makes a hell of a good image don't you think.
I'm giving up soon. There are some things I'm just not meant for I guess.
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When was the last time you were close to giving up? When was the last time you gave up on something or someone?
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Comment by Mia
I have come close to giving up on myself many times in life and as you and Raven have both implied, it is love for those who care about you that keeps you alive. That and a chicken fear of pain.
I wonder, though, if giving up on our dreams is, in some ways, worse than giving up on life in general. When I feel I've given up on my passions I feel defeated and life hardly seems worth living anyway. Just a meaningless existence. Sites like this at least keep us in touch with thoughts other than our own! Creative thoughts inspiring us to get creative.
I have given up on a lover once years ago when I realised I could not help him to overcome his drug addiction. It was heartbreaking and I doubt I will ever allow myself to feel so passionate about anyone ever again.
I am also thinking of giving up on my current partner. The sad thing is though, I will also be giving up on a part of me. The part of me that is attached to him and that believes in us. I'd like to try, try, try and to succeed but what if he gives up first? Then it will not even be my decision.
Is it worse to give up or for someone else to give up on you?
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You are right. Outlets like this help save us. Writing is really therapy for me. The energy I can't express through dance or working out, I let out through writing. Typing out my thoughts and emotions is always, always cathartic.
So is interacting with readers. We, even if we are strangers, find strength in each other's words and stories.
And so for that, thank you Mia. Thank you Raven. Thank you Orble.
Comment by tlcorbin
An important step you're taken is to reach out, isolation and rumination isn't a healthy course of action. If I can lend an ear, you are welcome to msg me privately or on one of my posts. Orble is a remarkable community and many will offer help should you find someone you are simpatico with.
Thankfully, things never remain the same. Raven